My heart sunk to my feet,
a feeling I often dread;
Unanswered questions, uneasy feelings
and much confusion in my head.
What did I do wrong this time
to make you so furious ?
Am I annoying ? Are you hiding something ?
That is what I'm curious.
Lately much concern and worry lay heavy in my heart
For the sake of not being reprimanded by you,
in private I fall apart.
Living in the dark makes me desperately
seek the precious light
I'm not even angry, just simply hurt;
I don't think I'll sleep tonight.
At times I wonder if ever you have
any good things to say about me.
To avoid stressing you I wait patiently
and simply let you be.
Your words and actions at times resemble
a perfect fairy tale.
Not sure if it's an act to prove to me
that you can never fail.
Honesty and communication ,
that is all I ask.
Not a show or an unnecessary act;
please remove that mask.
Given the chance, I speak beautifully about you
even when I'm mad.
My heart tells me that is not the case with me
Can't lie, it makes me sad.
I can still hear you yelling and cursing.
Why do you speak to me that way ?
Don't worry in respects to you, when I speak to others,
only good things will I say.
My creator knows my heart.
He knows all that troubles me.
Wish you could visualize what I'm feeling
just so you can see.
I finish this off by simply saying
that I will love you forever.
I put this all in God's precious hands
and hope that things get better.
By: Belinda De La Cruz (Feb. 25, 2010)